The Last Opportunity
– Recovery After Decline

INTRODUCTION
THE LAST OPPORTUNITY – Recove­ry After Declines

Key to Initials: W.G. - William Grey I.E.S. - I. Eugene Salvesen

R.W.N.S. - Reginald W. N. Saunders R.J.S. - Ross J. Small, Arnprior W.M.T. - Will M. Taylor

This page is taken from volume No. 31 in 'The Historical Reference Series'.

• As much as anything, it is an account of personal recovery after decline.

• The series would not be complete without owning, as I have to the Lord and to my brethren, my failure to hold fast to the truth – and without testifying to His gracious ways in recovery. A sense of such grace is one of the factors behind producing this series.

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LETTERS:  February - June 1983

Dear A——, February, 1983
We continue attending the Lord’s Day readings at Saunders' home and find cheer with them. They seem to accept the failure of brethrenism and reject any attempts at organizational unity – circles of fellowship. This has come out without my asking, but may need clarification. I am not at all anxious about it …

• We had a good conversation and touched lightly on our relative positions. R.W.N.S. is naturally cautious, and age – in his 80th year, though he doesn’t look it – no doubt accentuates this. He had a heart attack a year or two ago and this adds to the above.

• Nonetheless we did share our feelings somewhat. He, of course, doesn’t naturally expect to be here long and this makes it more difficult, I assume, to contemplate the continuation of any sort of testimony here. But he seemed to warm to the subject and does not have a closed mind.

• We discussed ‘reception’ and he did not raise objections to our practice here … They don’t make radio and TV a test. The failure of brethren is acknowledged and that we can make no claim.

• He seems sensitive to the danger on their part, as well as on ours, of being independent of others in whom God is working. It is a beginning. The Lord must direct and open our hearts.

• Cautiously, I would say I think our presence and participation has stimulated them. I find the readings quite edifying. I told R.W.N.S. I had not prayed or given out a hymn – priestly acts – to avoid offence. He said he didn’t think it would offend, and left it to me.

Dear B—, February 28,1983
I passed on your message to R.W.N.S. at the reading in his home on Lord's Day. He and the few elder brethren were greatly cheered to hear of the help you are receiving from F.E.R.

• Mr. Raven is helpful on so many positive truths, but he also provides a good lead in his withering denunciation of brethrenism and ecclesiasticism. If brethren had listened to him on these points and responded, many might have been spared the horrendous experiences of recent years; I will be very glad to hear how you get on as you proceed with your reading.

Continued – Lord's Day, March 6, 1983
We had expected to continue with our readings on John’s gospel on Thursday – but our God intervened in an unexpected manner. I had dozed off and was awakened by C—— ringing to get in. I got up to open the apartment building door.

• Before he came in, I felt dizzy and passed out. The next thing I knew, C—— was over me trying to rouse me and I could hear Betty on the phone calling for an ambulance. We were at the hospital till 11:00 pm. After tests, the doctor said it did not appear to be a heart problem, and I am to have a complete checkup by my own doctor.

• It was a real mercy that C—— was with us to help and support Betty. Christian fellowship is not restricted to the meetings. We were all conscious of the Lord’s hand over us.

• I stayed home Friday, still weak and a little dizzy, but feeling better as time goes on. We are expecting to leave shortly for the reading at Saunders, after an encouraging time at the breaking of bread here.

Your concern as to E——’s situation and its effect on you are quite understandable. I cannot, of course, speak for him but can sug­gest a few considerations.

• Those of us who had known and experienced the close fellowship among brethren in earlier years, as well as the flow of edifying ministry, have all been shocked and, to a great extent, demoralized by the defection and failure which has come in.

• It has been much like the shipwreck – Acts 27. We have all had to make our way through the breakdown and very few of us have been completely true to the light and principles we know and profess.

Much of my course over the past 10-12 years could easily and rightly be criticized. Withdrawing from the legal sect was surely right – but what happened next? I sorely felt the need of companionship and made several attempts with various groups of brethren – all in vain.

• In desperation for companionship, I eventually linked up with some ‘opens’, far more off course than those I had left as a young man in 1950.

• I own the whole matter as a lack of dependence on God – and that if I had been in close communion I would have been preserved from such fruitless and compromising actions. However that may be, God has overruled in providing contacts with you, and C—— and E—— that have proved to be to our mutual comfort.

I do not know all of E——’s history, but I do know he has been in similar isolated circumstances – in some ways far more trying than I have had to face. He has attempted fellowship, unsuccessfully, with several groups over the years.

• He has several times expressed to me his longing for a meeting of a character more akin to what we have known, and laments that there is none in Toronto.

• All this indicates he is not without exercise, as does the fact that he is willing from time to time to come and share in our little situation. It may be that he is at a different point in his history than others are.

These are just some thoughts that come to mind as a possible explanation. In no way, however, would I justify in myself, or in others, the ignoring of the claims of the distinctive light of the assembly which has been vouchsafed to us by the Spirit, and for which we are responsible. But let us be patient with others while we are stringent on ourselves.

• I trust the foregoing may be of some value to you for I would deeply feel you being stumbled. The Lord has need of you.

Continued – Monday, March 7, 1983
I stayed home today and saw my doctor. He wants to see me again but, at this point, thinks the problem is high blood pressure and has given me some medication.

A—— has again expressed concern as to E——’s position. It is clear that the concern really relates to our relationship to E—— and his participation in household meetings here. I hope to reply to A—— in shortly, but please share what I have included in this letter with him.

• It seems that we need to review our outlook on others, and how we stand in regard to brethrenism and Christendom in general. I suspect there is a clinging to the old ‘position’ syndrome, and a hesitancy to discard brethrenism and move forward in faith, holding fast to the truth but relating it to the post-brethren era.

We were shocked to hear of what A—— called the “bizarre cir­cumstances” of your dismissal from employment – and feel with you both in what you must be passing through. God is allowing many of His people to be tested in their circumstances, and this will no doubt serve to strengthen faith, deepen dependence and increase holiness and devotion to Christ.

Dear A——, March 10, 1983
I did receive a good letter from B—— He did not mention his employment situation, but your letter came in time for me to assure him of our concern. Your report of spiritual gain coming to them through the discipline is encouraging. Also, their desire to have the children baptized is spiritual ground gained which should help to forward the little work in ——.

I asked R.W.N.S. whether he would be free to suggest some Scriptures for consideration on March 19th, if the Lord will. He was hesitant but promised an answer for the Lord's Day.

• W.M.T. and I.E.S. seem eager to get together. It is a fine example when we can see aged brethren so ready. It reminds me of Simeon “a man in Jeru­salem” and Anna who departed not from the temple despite her advanced age.

Continued – March 12, 1983
There is no doubt how important whole households are to God and to the believer. As we have been taught, our households are to be bulwarks of the assembly. To serve this exalted purpose it is essential that they be united. And we seek this blessing from God for you all.

• In the meantime, patience is so important. You will no doubt go over how patient the Lord was with you – and this may ease your heart and quiet your natural impatience. Your example will be the most important factor externally – and inwardly, we rely on the sovereignty of God in mercy.

Your mother’s request that you refrain from mentioning the Lord’s things in your letters seems strange on the surface. Not having seen the contents of your letters makes it difficult to judge the reason behind it.

• Several situations are possible. She may have difficulty in accepting your restoration and/or your present marital status, either of which could make her doubt your reality or even if accepted could still cause a reluctance to hear you.

• Letters can also be misunderstood – as I have often experienced – and remarks which seem innocuous to you may appear aggressive, self-righteous or self-justifying to others.

• You may never really know her true feelings – but she is your mother, and a believer, and it would be right to continue to honour her by writing. Perhaps reference to the Lord’s things, right though they may be, should be toned down and gone over carefully to avoid any offence without compromising the truth.

My reference as to not going from one extreme to the other was as to B—— and you first considering me extreme for not using the name of Christ in connection with the December 25 religious celebration and then yourselves considering it tantamount to using the Lord’s name in vain.

• All matters should be looked at soberly and carefully before taking strong positions. Now you concur re “Xmas” and will say “the holiday season”. Of course, “holiday” is just a contraction of ‘holy day’. Where does this leave your decision?

• My point is simply that we should proceed carefully and know all the facts before we make any pronouncement. It is easy, but dangerous, to make quick judgments on any matter.

You do not need to “feel like a skeleton in your closet”. My concern was as to the type of remarks, including allusions to earlier contacts with W.M.T., which I did not judge would be helpful at the present moment in view of our concern here as to whether closer links my be of the Lord.

• And though you say “I am not ashamed of what I say”, I don’t feel it would be right to show yours of Feb. 27th to E—— If you have righteous matters to take up with any brother, it would be Scriptural to do this directly – not through me. But I think your issue is with me.

Continued – March 13, 1983
You say that you are “not too clear on the casual breaking of bread of those of the Lord’s people who are more or less in a continuing relationship with us”.

• This, of course, has been a debated point among many groups of brethren for may years “but from the beginning it was not so”. Godly believers were always welcomed provided they were not associated with evil teaching.

• This is borne witness to in the Letters of J.N.D., articles by William Kelly and others in the Bible Treasury, to name only those with which I am familiar. There is also an interesting reference in F.E.R. 12: 276-77 – 1898.

The point is not whether we could find a reason for receiving other believers, but whether there is any Scriptural reason for hin­dering them.

• All who are members of the one body of Christ are entitled to partake of the Lord's Supper – unless disqualified.

The tendency among many groups is to view themselves as having some special position of importance because of their intelligence in divine things and, consequently, looking down on others with lesser light.

• But light is not the test of fellowship, but walking in the light, our relationship to Christ, having the Spirit, being of the one body. Of course, in these days of ruin we should, as you say, point out the responsibility of those who may partake with us.

Finally, I come to your question as to E——’s position. Your original concern was as to us having W.M.T. suggest Scriptures for our little occasional readings several years ago, and before we had even established contact with E——, as far as my memory serves me.

• At that time you pressed me as to the rightness of how far I might be prepared to go in this regard on the basis of helping the young men who came to our home for readings. Under heavy pressure from you – to which I should not have yielded – I mentioned some names of brothers known to me – but I went to the outer limits in naming them. We have not acted on that.

• Of course, our thoughts have somewhat matured since then. And even you have not raised the matter again as to W.M.T., or our suggestion as to R.W.N.S. Do you make a dif­ference?

Enclosed is a copy of part of my letter of Feb. 28, 1983 to B——, which you may have seen, and I will try not to repeat.

Now there are many brothers who have as much or more light than E—— who are in similar positions – and others who are in far worse positions, still with the legal sect or its offshoots.

• You do not express concern as to them, perhaps because they or their circumstances are not personally known to you.

The issue then seems to be that E—— has, on occasion, been present here with us and suggested Scriptures – or would you hinder him from any participation at all? If he were a simple brother and not gifted, would this make a difference?

• In fact we invited him to suggest Scriptures first and last in May, 1981, when T—— and D—— were both still with us.

• I am not sure whether he was at any other meetings until the first time, some months ago, that R.W.N.S. was present. At that time I suggested the Scriptures and E——, along with others, participated.

• I believe the only time, other than those, was on the last tape I sent which was a house­hold reading with ourselves and C—— who was visiting. This is not to justify but, as far as possible, to set the facts in order.

As to principles, we are not yet clear as to our own ‘position’ in these last days of failure and ruin.

• A few years ago the very same charges could have been made against both you and me, which you now prefer against E—— I seriously question the fairness of such charges against a brother whose circumstances and exercises over the years are barely known to you.

• And I must also call in question the application of such descriptions to our brother. It appears that such remarks are an attempt to convict us of wrongness of action.

How you can expect me to show a letter with such comments to a brother, I cannot really understand. It shocks me.

• While I agree we should be ready to challenge or be challenged, this appears to bear the marks of the legal sect – I am sorry and ashamed to say. Ought we not to be more concerned to help a brother than questioning him, when we know the very real difficulties of finding our way?

If any charges are to be preferred, they should be against me, for the responsibility of inviting and encouraging to participate lies here. Charge me, my brother, but not one unknown to you.

Now where do ‘we’, here and in ——, stand? Are we still maintaining that we are the successors of the early brethren and that God is going on with ‘the brethren’ – whoever they may be – as a testimony? I am not at all sure that I could support that. God has never restored a failed testimony.

• And do we need any more proof that the once bright testimony has completely failed? – I am not deny­ing or rejecting the great recovery of truth as to Christ and the assembly. – If this is so, what are we to do? Are we to merely take opposing positions to other believers or seek in gentleness to instruct those the Lord puts in our way, both by word and example?

• If there is to be anything of a collective character for Christ, will it not be by persons being attracted to the freshness of first love and the spirit of holding fast? Can the Lord trust us to represent Him and His long­ings to our scattered brethren? Can there be a ‘fresh’ testimony in any sense at all if we allow the features of that which has failed to govern us in our relations with our brethren?

• Just consider how the Spirit of God acted in the 1820's and 1830's. Souls were attracted, not repelled by any tinge of harshness or legality.

Now you may feel that I am coming down hard on you and also pleading for compromise. Be assured that neither is in my mind.

• You have spoken plainly and the bond of love which has held us these many years emboldens me to speak as I have.

• This is our last opportunity! We are no longer young men with all the answers. Any idealistic pictures we had of brethren have been long since shattered. The responsibility has now come to us. Will we do any better or will we fail before we even begin?

Dear A——, March 30, 1983
It is now my turn to inquire whether I have offended you in my last letter? Be assured that my affection remains as ever and that I would defend you just as vigorously. I have no personal axe to grind in this matter.

• But I do see the truth of what I learned many years ago – from J.N.D. or C.A.C. – that a false argument proves too much and therefore it proves nothing.

• Your application of the clean/unclean animal and ox/ass yoke if carried to its logical conclusion would cover almost every soul in Christendom except you in ——, and possibly ourselves here.

• This is far beyond a reasonable use and puts us back into the same pretentious position which we have both fled and denounced.

Believe me, I cannot bear to think of any rift between us. G.V.W. said, “We love many as believers in Christ and wish them well, from whom we are obliged to keep separated”, 3: 182 – 1853. But now that that which appeared fairest and best has failed it raises the question as to how we are to proceed.

• We must own our part in the failure but how are we to regard others who have suffered as we have? They may have grabbed hold of a piece of a board or a piece of the ship for support – as indeed we ourselves have done – but are they salvageable? Shall we make nothing of all the rest of men – they who may be sighing and crying too over the desolation of Jerusalem?

I would echo the words of J.N.D. – “I feel daily more the importance of the Christians at Plymouth”, I say, ‘——’, “and I do trust that you will keep infinitely far from the sectarianism. The great body of Christians who are accustomed to religion are scarce capable of understanding anything else, as the mind ever tends there. If they become so in their position before God, they would be utterly useless, and I am persuaded, immediately broken to pieces. You are nothing, nobody, but Christians, and the moment you cease to be an available mount for communion for any consistent Christian, you will go pieces or help the evil”, Letters of J.N.D. 1: 18 – 1833.

Please do not misunderstand me writing thus. I am not charging you, but bear the word of exhortation. It is not that I intend to justify all our actions or claim immunity from any challenge. We simply seek to walk in the fear of God and with compassion for all.

We had a good time, Sat. March 19th. At our invitation, R.W.N.S. suggested both readings – (1) the power of God, (2) the power that works in us. I taped the meetings but in view of the participation of E—— have not copied them for you yet. If you wish them I would gladly oblige.

We are concerned to understand just how we should regard our situation vis-a-vis so-called ‘brethren’.

• Can we in any sense regard ourselves as being in an historical continuation of that special revival or must we regard it as a failure in public testimony – in whatever section – and revert to the Malachi 3 position?

• This is, to me, a most necessary exercise and might clear our vision as we go through it.

We are few, in 2's and 3's. Are there others like minded in whom the Spirit is working? I am not anxious for large numbers. We have seen them, and how the crowds – pious though many were personally – were deceived and distracted from Christ. But I am concerned that we should have a sense of God’s direction!

• There is much in the teaching, especially as to the service of God, which I treasure. God has made Himself known in Christ by the Spirit so that we, as recovered, can approach Him as sons and enter into the secret of divine affections. This cannot be given up or allowed to fall to the ground. We are to keep Christ’s word and not deny His name, holding fast that which we have. I would like to hear your thoughts.

Dear A——, May 19, 1983
While there may be minor differences of judgment between us – now or in the future – I have confidence that such can and will be resolved by a common humiliation before Him who is our Lord and Teacher and with mutual affection and respect.

• Even at this distance and with the inherent difficulties of written communications, the Blessed Spirit can bring us to one mind – the mind of Christ.

But how much better to be able to speak face to face. Then the tone of voice, the aspect of the face, the twinkle of an eye or the gesture of a hand can help immediately in the proper understanding of the spoken word. And questions can be raised and misapprehensions corrected in all the ease of brotherly conversation.

• Then too, united prayer can be made and, if necessary, confessions too with an informal ease which paper and ink, however valuable, do not provide.

I do miss the stimulation of face to face conversation with you for we have always been able to speak frankly and affectionately. However I do not see the way clear yet to come to you – the business situation is increasingly difficult.

In the main I agree with your comments on both “reception” and “ecclesiastical position” and may attempt a detailed response later.

• Whatever other factors may apply, it is clear that all members of the one body have the right and title to the breaking of bread unless Scripturally disqualified – doctrinally, morally, by association with iniquity – and this would require definition – or coming in self-will and an independent spirit.

• Not that I think that we should invite persons except under special circumstances and even then perhaps the word ‘invite’ is wrong – indeed I believe it is! House guests who are believers should be simply told what we are proposing to do and allowed to be present. If, beforehand, they express a desire to participate the principles governing can be laid out, and if nothing hinders, who could forbid?

• But each case must be looked at individually and a balanced judgement made in humiliation over the public ruin that requires it, and with a shepherd spirit. But there is much more to be gone into and your comments help much.

• Persons cannot and must not be refused simply on the basis that they are “not of us” – there are many simple persons who love Christ sincerely – but there are also impostors and self-willed as well.

• And even some who wish to join in with us as the occasion provides might be rightly deterred if they realized both the seriousness of the act personally and the fact that they would be sharing in the supreme act of fellowship with those who reject, in their entirety, the sectarian and clerical systems which vie at impersonating the assembly.

As to “raising questions” with me, I trust we will always be free in a brotherly way to help each other by counsel or, if necessary, challenge. I do not want to give the impression that we feel this cannot be done.

• The fellowship is general as well as local – and the general position as to the truth should always govern the local, else we become practically independent, and this denies the one body and one Spirit.

• Still, until we can speak face to face on some matters it is wise to practise some restraint in the expressing of opinions and I apply this to myself for, on reading some of my letters I find certain parts – although not intended – sound somewhat dogmatic.

We continue attending and participating in Lord's Day readings at Saunders. I am looking for direction as whether we – and they – can go further, but things proceed slowly with those who are older. Of course, if anything develops we would not want to act without your knowledge and fellowship.

We still sense the Lord’s help at the Supper, though weak in many ways. Being the only brother is a test though, thank God, not a burden.

Reading ministry – going through G.R.C.’s at the moment – helps, as does the weekly contact with C—— and the older brethren – but the stimulation of closer association with mature and active minds is sorely needed. You and B—— are blessed to have each other to work out matters in a mutual way.

As we grow older we feel the lack of friends – close friends – nearby and, while I trust in the Father’s care, I cannot but help be concerned as to Betty, if the Lord should take me. I don’t want to be depressing. Do you have any such feelings or concerns?

Dear B—, May 27,1983
R.W.N.S. showed me your letter on the Lord's Day. He had read it to the brethren and they were all encouraged to hear the way God has given you light for your pathway here through the ministry of honoured servants of the Lord.

• He was admitted to hospital on Wednesday for tests, and there is a suspicion of cancer. I did speak to him on Wednesday night and he seemed in good spirits.

When W.G. phoned us on Wednesday he was concerned as to what might happen to them on Lord's Day. Referring to their age and frailty, he said, “I hope this group doesn’t break up. It’s all I’ve got!”.

• In view of the fact that we have not yet spoken as to the possibilities of walking together more closely I could say nothing as to the Lord's Supper, but did suggest they come to us on Lord's Day for a reading, if the Saunders home was not available. None of the others have suitable circumstances for a meeting.

• R.W.N.S. admits our relations are “abnormal” at the moment but agreed with my suggestion if the others who would be free were so minded.

I just had a call from W.M.T. who is in town – he lives some 80 miles from Toronto – to visit R.W.N.S., and he said he and W.G. were quite happy to come if their usual arrangements were not possible, and they will contact I.E.S.

It is of prime importance that there be free, open, and good brotherly relationships, at all times, between you in —— and ourselves and will, with the Lord’s gracious help, do whatever can be done from here to ensure this.

C—— is continuing and also, in measure, getting light. His younger cousin – a professed believer is planning to marry an unbeliever – and C—— is concerned not to have fellowship with here by attending. This puts him at odds with other family members – some of whom are believers – who don’t approve, but will go along with it.

Dear A——, June 3, 1983
R.W.N.S. is still in hospital for tests and if he gets out for, or on, the weekend he will go to his son’s – not ‘in fellowship’. We have arranged for the brethren to come to our home on Lord's Day afternoon for the reading. They came last week and we continued their subject – the book of Acts – with mutual help.

We are being thrown more closely together and we are exercised as to how to proceed. I hear – from R.J.S. – that Saunders find it somewhat of a burden, by reason of their age and health, to have the meetings in their home. Unless they are able to afford and obtain some a meeting room, there is no alternative.

• We are, of course, very glad to have them come to us but, in the present situation, it means that they do not break bread. I have considered speaking to them as to the situation in view of us all inquiring what grounds there might be to break bread together – whether we all have truly repudiated ‘brethrenism’ so as to be able to walk together pleasing to the Lord.

• The only real difficulty that I can foresee at the moment, from our side, is ‘brethrenism’. Otherwise we could have no difficulty about these beloved old brethren. What they might think about us, and you in ——, is another matter.

• At this point, I wait for direction. As you know, the matter has been on our minds for some time but, being cautious and hesitant, I hold back where a more spiritual person might go forward in power.

We had W.M.T. here for lunch today before the reading, and took the opportunity to share with him our concerns as to our relations and whether the Lord would have us go further. It took quite a time to get to the main point, as he is somewhat discursive. However, at last it is out.

• He seemed to be sympathetic and, as you probably know, is quite open-hearted towards all saints. I am, for the moment, leaving it with him to talk to the others. However, because of distance and limited opportunities this may take some time.

• This will give us all further opportunity for prayer, in which we trust you all in —— will earnestly join us so that we might all be clear as to the Lord’s mind. We will keep you informed of any developments as they arise and, of course will not act precipitously, we trust.

There seems to be so much to do and so little time and energy for it. I have had a concern to set down in writing some thoughts which have come out in our readings but make little progress. It takes time for thoughts to mature but, even when they do, the necessary undistracted state of mind usually is lacking.

Over the past 2-3 years we seem to have gone from one crisis to another – whether in health, family matters with my parents, business, and the young ones to who we have sought to minister.

• I am sure you have had a similar experience and I do not want to simply unload on you. But a brother is born for adversity, and I trust you will not mind me mentioning matters of vital concern to me. Perhaps we will, in God’s good ways, again have the privilege of speaking face to face and sharing our concerns.

• Your situation is often in our minds and prayers, not only for your blessing and that of your household but also in relation to the testimony of the Christ – our supreme interest here, as he is our supreme interest as Man in heaven.

Increasingly, I feel the need of being irrevocably committed to the continuance of the service of God – that there might be a suitable and worthy response to Father, Son and Holy Spirit, of true assembly character.

• This is the more important as we consider how fragile our whole situation is and how everything depends on God Himself, to empower us to continue and to be, in some sense, a representation and continuation of Christ here.

Dear A——, June 21, 1983
We were pleasantly surprised to have W.G. bring along his aged sister Mrs. MacGregor – who is also a sister of Mrs. James Marshall – who was out on leave from a nursing home in Barrie to attend the burial of R.W.N.S. This was at our reading on Lord's Day.

After the reading, to my surprise, W.M.T. raised the matter we had discussed as to breaking bread together – in a very positive manner. W.G. was also quite positive, saying we had all been in fellowship together for months. I.E.S. did not contribute, but did not make any objections.

• I raised the matter of ‘brethrenism’ and all seemed set against it.

• I pointed out that we were not applying to them for fellowship nor considering that they were applying to us – and this was readily accepted. In addition, I emphasized our links of affection and practical fellowship with you and B——’s in ——. W.M.T. spoke appreciatively of you, and the brethren all referred to the good letter of B—— to R.W.N.S.

• The danger of forming a group or claiming to be ‘the position’, etc. was stressed by W.M.T. I believe God has begun to work in all our hearts, and desire it may continue to His glory. I have no doubt you will continue to pray with us.

In view of their having been unable to break bread these last 4-5 weeks, I anticipate that they may wish to go forward quickly – they all value the Lord's Supper highly.

• We do not want to move with unbecoming haste but would find it difficult to refuse to go ahead at once, unless there was a cause. And we do desire your – all of you – confidence that we might not be thought to be acting independently.

• The matter was left for the brethren to consider and I don’t expect any action until a further discussion next Lord's Day. Mrs. Jones would also have to be taken into the matter.

They all feel they acted rightly individually in withdrawing from iniquity back in the early 1960's, and I would have to agree with them.

• They seem to feel all that has come in but do not appear to have any special thought of continuing anything, but rather to be acting in respect of the present moment. They realize that they have not grown but seem to simply want to hold fast to what they have in view of the Lord’s coming.

• I would that you were all here to be involved and provide your own insights. They are looking for His coming and at their age – all but Mrs. Jones are well over 80 – are all but detached from this scene – but desirous of not giving up.

Dear A——, June 27, 1983
We were both cheered to hear your voice on the phone, but saddened to note your evident weariness and the effect of your health problems on your usual buoyant spirit.

• We cannot escape the afflictions common to all mankind nor the onset of aging but, thank God, these cannot touch nor diminish the blessed heavenly and spiritual privileges which are ours, now and eternally, in Christ.

• They do however make us feel our frailty both personally and in regard of the testimony of Christ – and should drive us to God in our need. This can only result in an increase in spiritual blessing when all is received from the hand of a faithful Creator and sovereign Redeemer.

• But this is all known to you as is our constant affection for you, drawn out the more now for we feel how much you are needed in ——, and by us here in Toronto.

If the Lord will, we plan to come to you on Thursday, August 18. Whatever you arrange in the way of meetings and times will be quite suitable. Perhaps you could let me know how many readings there will be in view of suggesting Scriptures. I would prefer prophetic meetings to addresses but will abide by the local brethren. Please let me know if you decide for an address – no more than one in any case, please. C—— would have come if he could have changed his vacation.

Continued – June 28, 1983
On the Lord's Day we spoke again of breaking bread together and both W.G. and I.E.S. are quite eager to proceed quickly and are ready for the coming Lord’s Day.

• W.M.T. is very free but concerned that Mrs. Saunders and Mrs. Jones should both have the opportunity – which they have not had for various reasons – to understand the exercise and to be involved in it, rather than just be presented with a fait accompli. Betty feels very strongly that the other sisters should have this opportunity, and I fully share the concern with her and W.M.T.

• He phoned last night and intends to visit Mrs. Saunders and Mrs. Jones today and lay out matters before them. I expect he will phone us tonight and let us know how matters stand in view of contacting W.G. and I.E.S. re the Lord's day.

I would that you could have heard W.M.T. last night. His concern for the sisters as well as the Lord’s rights and his admission of seeing many things differently would have encouraged you.

• He no longer holds that ‘brethren’ are a special group superior to other believers, has a wide outlook on others of the one body but is con­scious of the precious light of Christ and the assembly in Paul’s minis­try. He himself purposes to continue true to that.

• He emphasizes the moral character of fellowship that John sets out – walking “in the light” and “in the truth”. We are both restful as to the outcome seeing the results of the Spirit’s work in all our heats – leading to honour Christ.

When we go ahead we will most likely meet at 11:00 am for the Supper and 12:30 for the reading. This allows for travelling time for the older brethren and especially for W.M.T. who drives 80 miles or so.

• He has expressed his concern that our place should not be taken for granted as a permanent meeting place, so as not to burden Betty. As we are not central, some other location might be convenient for all. They seem to favour renting a meeting room which we can appreciate, but whether a convenient and affordable place could be found must be placed in God’s hands.

• As to hymn books, they seem disposed to use the 1973 re-selection, rather than the 1951 revision they have been using. I had loaned one to R.W.N.S. some months ago and he had been favourably impressed, suggesting to them that if they needed more hymn books they should switch to it.

Of course most of the foregoing matters are relatively unim­portant – the Puritans would say ‘indifferent’ – and are left to the wisdom of the saints.

• The main point must be recognizing the current work of God in all our hearts, and our working together in the light of His revelation and the opening up of the truth into which we, by grace, have been brought.

While we believe that Lord is bringing us together, as we approach the realization of it the whole matter seems overwhelming after our extended period of fewness.

• Taking into account their great age and general frailty, it is not likely that we will enjoy a prolonged time together, but we count on the Lord to make it profitable for us all and, more importantly, honouring to Him.

• In no way do we want, or anticipate, any change in our rela­tionships with the brethren in ——. Rather, we hope that any expansion here – temporary though it may be – will work out for an increase in spiritual blessing for you, as well as or ourselves.

• The assurance of your support and sympathy in all our exercises has been a source of strength to us which we will not forget.

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PHILIP  HADDAD
96, Lighthouse Hill, Smethwick, Warley, West Midlands, B675EB

Mr. Philip Haddad, July 1983
Dear brother,
Recently W.M.T. passed on a copy of Ministry by G. R. Cowell – Booklet No. 1 and I was glad to note that you are continuing this valuable service.

You may recall that we spoke briefly on the telephone when you were visiting in Toronto some years ago. Following that you kindly sent me a number of books, and I have recently obtained sev­eral others from Kingston Bible Trust.

• However, I am missing several volumes of the ­Memorials series, i.e., #1, 3, 4, 17 and on. If they are available now, or in the future, I would appreciate having them.

• I have been reading through G.R.C.’s ministry and finding it profitable and edifying. Both his early and later ministry is quite distinctive.

• Having worked a little on transcription of notes in the past I can well appreciate the amount of loving service that lies behind such pub­lications.

Mr. R. W. N. Saunders is now with Christ. He went into the hospital for tests – May 25 – resulting in surgery – June 1. He seemed to have come through the operation reasonably well for his age but, while still in hospital, had a heart attack – June 17.

• I had spoken to him briefly on the telephone the previous evening. He had some difficulty in speaking but did send a message of encouragement to two young men who come to our home for Bible readings. R.W.N.S. had met them and showed a keen interest in their spiritual progress.

• W.M.T. spoke at the burial – June 21 – from 2 Tim. 2: 1-2 and other Scriptures. We sang 424 and 206 – 1973 book. W.M.T. committed the body to the Lord. Besides Mrs. Saunders – who greatly feels her loss – and Philip and his wife and two children, there were about 2 dozen brethren – variously connected and unconnected – present.

• Thankfully, there were enough able-bodied brothers to be pall bearers. Mrs. Saunders is staying at her son’s for the moment but expects to return to home when her daughter, Enid, arrives from the West Coast later in the month for a visit.

Dear Gordon, July 20, 1983
Dear brother in Christ,
I was very grieved at the news of our dear brother Mr. Saunders’ departure. It is a great loss to the brethren – so few in Toronto – but especially to his dear wife. My wife and I bear very precious memories of the time when we stayed with them.

As to beloved G.R.C.’s ministry, all books before 10-16 are out of print. I enclose Booklets 2 and 3 herewith, which may be the last publications I shall produce.

I am grateful for the details of our brother’s burial and those present.

With love in Christ, Your brother in Him, Philip Haddad

Mr. Philip Haddad,
Dear brother, August 29, 1983
Thank you for yours of July 20th and the enclosed booklets of G.R.C. which were awaiting us on our return from ——. I am sorry to hear that you may not be able to produce further booklets. Perhaps the Lord will stimulate some one to continue your long and valued service. It would be sad indeed if such ministry were lost to the assembly.

You may remember Jack Heggie. He is now 75 and in a nur­sing home requiring care on account of the breakdown of bodily func­tions. We visited him recently and found him bright in his spirit and with good opportunity to spread the gospel.

The breaking of bread and prayer and reading are now held in our home. In addition we continue to have readings on Thursday nights with two or three young people who we met through various circumstances. The numbers have gone up and down over the years – and some have been lost to the pull of the world and the worldly religion around. We look to God for help to build them up by the Spirit, and that the Lord may add them.

A subject index of the 1973 hymn book for private use has been completed and I have embarked on a comparative study of the various revisions of the hymn book. If you know of anyone from whom I might obtain an 1856 book, I would appreciate hearing.

• When we were first married in the early 1950's I actually saw one in a used book store here, but was hard pressed financially and could not afford the price – a mere 25¢ – to purchase it.

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LETTERS:  July 1983 - October 1984

Dear A——, July 14, 1983 Your kind offer of “wheels” is not unnoticed, although I would be hesitant to take it up. We are not, as you well understand, coming for a sightseeing vacation – we leave that to those who have no heavenly hope.

• Not that we would despise the beauty of a – ruined – creation, nor ignore the evidences of God’s great power if it did not hinder our occupation in His business but our special interest is the present work of God by the Spirit!

Dear A——, August 3,1983
I have not mentioned your comments re J.T.’s books to I.E.S. yet. Although B—— does not have any present interest in them it is possible that 2 years ago he would not have appreciated F.E.R. – and we should look ahead.

• If the Lord takes I.E.S. there is no telling what my happen to the books. Now they are available for almost nothing. I think it would be a mistake, and perhaps a slight, to refuse such a brotherly offer. Acceptance could go a long way to cementing rela­tions with the beloved older brethren. But I fear I have said too much!

I fear that I also may have appeared to be both ungrateful and ‘super spiritual’ re your offer of wheels. I intended neither. F.E.R., as you note, often went to Scarborough (!) by the sea, but was always involved in meetings there. The Lord did say – Come apart and rest awhile. This is not to be despised! Although when the disciples drew His attention to the magnificent temple buildings He turned to prophecy.

I have given much thought and consideration – as well as prayer – to the meetings and believe the Spirit has indicated a line which may be of help to us all. Much will depend on the brethren actively contributing and supporting.

Dear A——, September 12, 1983
Since our arrival home from —— all events seemed to have worked together to hinder writing to you. We did enjoy the time with you and B——’s very much and trust that spiritual gain will come out of it for us all. The hospitality and kindness will not be forgotten.

W.M.T. arrived home a week ago Saturday and was not rested enough to make it here last Lord's Day.

I am enclosing some correspondence of R.W.N.S. and myself with a brother, D.D.L. of Croydon. I have also given copies to W.M.T. as we shall have to consider a brotherly reply.

• He appears to have taken my letter as a feeler as to establishing practical links of fellowship. Your thoughts would be of value before we write. W.M.T. does not seem anxious to do anything official.

Dear A——, October 28, 1983
The news in your letter of October 16th that you might be able to come for a visit in the near future is most welcome. We, and the brethren will be glad to see you whenever the Lord prospers your way.

• C—— and G—— have both been coming regularly on Thursdays, and were with us last night for 1 Cor. 2. We were helped in looking at the positive work of the Spirit in opening up the things of God, following the negative operation of the preaching of the cross – chap. 1 – to set aside both the religious and the educated man.

You are no doubt correct that we – I – should have been more forthright as to our convictions as to ‘brethrenism’ and the exaltation of ministers. When we write to those in Croydon I will try to convey this in a gentle manner.

On Lord's Day, instead of a reading, we had an extended time of conversation in which the sisters could express themselves – properly covered! lest you be troubled in spirit.

I can well understand your concern as to not changing the time of the Lord's Supper merely for personal convenience. At the same time we have to deal with the facts. We are in a post-Christian era and times will become increasingly difficult.

• In apostolic times the first day of the week apparently was not a day of rest, and the break­ing of bread at Troas was in the evening. In non-Christian influenced areas, such as the Arab-Islamic world, the first day is a work day.

• As I understand it, the principle is not the particular hour but the day itself. We are to be wisdom’s children, and it is left to us to decide. If it were a large meeting I would think the agreed hour would not be changed and the brother or sister would have to miss, unless they could get free.

• I doubt it is a matter of conscience but rather of seek­ing to be free if possible. Making a request as Daniel did – in his case it was conscience – could surely not jeopardize anything for B—— as long as he is prepared to accept the outcome under God’s hand.

• Still, with fewness to be reckoned with, I would seriously consider making a change on the required weeks. The hour is left for our decision, as long as we act in faith and with a desire to please Him.

• I do not think it comely for a married – or single – brother to go to another brother’s house alone when he is away and the wife at home – it is not comely in the public position, however pure it may be – we are to avoid all appearance of evil.

• If this was the only alternative to changing the hour, I would change the hour or be forced to leave the matter of the Supper for that week. Of course, I am not attempting to dictate to the brethren – but I give my judgment, as far as I see at the moment.

It is of the utmost importance that personal feelings be disallowed between brethren. There is no place for the flesh in Gods’ assembly – under whatever guise or excuse.

• A flux – see Leviticus – is certainly not as bad as leprosy but it – the allowance of what I am naturally – is still defiling and is entirely unsuitable for God’s dwelling. Be at peace among yourselves!

I am sorry B—— thinks we are “still marked by PB4ism”. He would only know its characteristics from you or us but – while we don’t wish to defend ourselves – I question whether he really understands it sufficiently to make such a judgment.

• Not that we may not be tinged, but we – and others – have judged it at great cost and loss, as you know. I would like to know what features he discerns. Is it because we adhere to the Scriptures as our guide and are not governed by the worldly wisdom prominent in Christendom? This is not PB4ism!

I am sorry, too, that B—— doesn’t feel he had all his questions answered – but we spent a good deal of time on them. You may recall that I made sure we returned to them.

• A meeting or two will not suffice to unravel and undo the confused view of the assembly and its various aspects inherited from others. The temple is for inquiry so that we may hear God speak by the Spirit – not merely for questions as in a ‘Bible study’.

Dear A——, November 11, 1983
We are looking forward to seeing you on Dec 2nd. That includes C——, and L—— looks forward to meeting you for the first time.

• I know you are looking forward to a quiet and relaxed time but it is important that we work in a visit with both C—— and G——, perhaps Saturday night dinner.

• The older brethren also anticipate your visit and we hope to change the meeting times on Lord's Day – perhaps breaking bread at 10:00 am to allow for a meal and conversation before the reading – leaving the evening free.

The times at the Supper are becoming increasingly precious, and I believe there is increased depth. Betty is especially encouraged in that hymns which have been in her thoughts are often given out. Mrs. Jones also seems to get on well.

W.M.T. stayed for lunch last Lord's Day and I took the opportunity to apprise him of the situation in —— as to the temporary (?) discontinuance of the breaking of bread. It would be a sorrowful and perhaps delicate situation if you had not resumed breaking bread before your visit.

• We are looking to the Lord that whatever difference there may be, or feelings between you and B——, may be resolved by both of you humbling yourselves before the Lord and each other.

I needn’t tell you what great and holy privileges we have and how active the enemy is to spoil anything that is for the heart of Christ.

• I am assured that what is for God and the Lord Jesus in you three in —— is exceedingly precious – and in brotherly love I urge you all to be reconciled. Remember Joseph’s words to his brethren – “Do not quarrel on the way”.

You will understand that we do not have any desire or inten­tion to interfere – or to take sides. The word always is – “Who is on Jehovah’s side?”

• But we feel the matter deeply and look for you to come to us with local matters settled before God – that your joy and ours may be full.

From: C——
A——, Lord’s Day, October 7, 1984
Dear brother,
It was a blessing to hear from you. Knowing you, A——, I can take all you write to heart, knowing you mean me no harm, but desire to lead me into a fuller knowledge of the truth.

By being in the position I am, I have been made to see the divided state of God’s people in general because of man’s systems! My heart is grieved because of it: (1) because it separates true believers from having fellowship in the Spirit; (2) it has caused conflict in my own heart.

There is much talk even where I attend, of depending wholly on God and not on man’s organization yet, at the same time, they feel the need of organization. I don’t understand the reasoning.

• What you said in your last letter about religious institutions keeping God’s people in folds, rather than a flock, is so true. We are so scared of things going wild and people doing things they shouldn’t, that there is a form of regulation instead of regulation being by the love of Christ.

I guess you wonder why I don’t get out of such an institution and follow Christ alone, depending on the Spirit.

• I have come to the realization that there is much in the organized church that goes contrary to Scripture but I just can’t find where it tells us to leave in the Scriptures.

• The basic principles of Christianity are carried on, i.e., faith in God, receiving the Spirit, deliverance, sanctification – all bestowed on us freely.

• The apostle Paul’s desire was to correct that which was wrong in the assembly – whether Judaizers, immorality, false teaching, etc. – but never to leave if you don’t succeed in this.

• If you can give me strong enough reason from Scripture to depart from this system I would gladly hear what you have to say. I have heard much on the topic but nothing yet that has fully satisfied me. Maybe I am stubborn, I don’t know, yet I could never feel peace in my heart until I am absolutely sure I have made the right choice.*
  [* After separating from the systems, C—— joined with us in the breaking of bread on Lord’s Day, November 3, 1985.]

• It seems that each day that passes I detest the flesh more and more. You truly come to the place where you see the flesh profits nothing.

• What joy it brings on the other hand to know our all sufficiency in the Lord Jesus Christ. He left all the riches of glory to become a man that we, through His poverty, might be rich.

• God has given us all spiritual blessings in Christ Jesus. There is no richer blessing than knowing Him and walking in His love. Doing that which pleases Him.

• This world added nothing to Him but a cross. He found no place to lay His head. This world truly is a dreary place. I have been led many time to thinks it benefits something, only to find true joy is doing the will of God, being found in the Lord Jesus, and fellowshipping with His people.

• I actually dread the fact that I could be led away from the blessedness of our Lord Jesus – which helps me trust Him to keep me not only from worldliness but from worldly principles.

It is great to hear of the faithfulness of our God in keeping you true to your calling without compromise. You have come through the school of discipline, God’s tender loving care bringing you to the place where Christ has been given His rightful place in your heart. And I am sure God will enlarge your heart to know Him in a greater measure during these trying days.

It is with great anticipation we await your arrival here in Toronto, in God’s timing though – which grants us patience, even as it does in awaiting the return on the Lord Jesus.

We are just about finished our study in Hebrews, which is challenging. Gord left me with Hebrews 13: 13, to try and figure out what it is to bear the Lord’s disgrace outside the city. Maybe this is the key that will unlock the door to spiritual liberty when I have truly been granted light regarding this.

Gord and Betty continue to be a great strength to me and an example of true hospitality, displaying the love of Christ in all they do.

Beloved brother, continue in the love of Christ, knowing that out fellowship is with the Father and with His Son, Jesus Christ.

Your brother in our blessed Lord, C——.

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DONALD  D.  LENG
Letter from: Donald D. Leng* to Mr. Saunders and further correspondence. 22, Birch Tree Way, Croydon, Surrey CRO 7JY [* Mr. Leng is connected with those in Croydon who refused Croham Hall. See From Freedom to Failure.]

Dear Mr. Saunders, April 4, 1983
Beloved brother,
Thank you for your welcome response to my letter of February last.

Our small gathering in Croydon is composed of two brothers and three sisters. We all left the —— brethren in different localities and at different times during the early 1960's and have resisted – and consequently been sadly reduced – the tendency to ‘open’ principles over the years.

• In spite of our smallness, we too have not felt it right to ‘join’ any of the groups, parties, sects or denominations that, alas!, those with whom we once all walked together, have degenerated into.

• We feel the only divinely-instituted company is the assembly, and our simple path is to walk in that light. We still use the 1951 Hymn Book as we feel the subsequent revisions or re-selections have aggravated divisions.

We sorrowfully acknowledge both the general public ruin and also the specific failure of those to whom the light of Christ and the assembly had been recovered. We bear the responsibility and shame of both as our own before God.

• Consequently we must refuse and reject the clericalism and the sectarian position and practices of brethrenism as well as of Christendom generally, while seeking grace to walk without pretension and with love to all the saints.

The few who assemble together here have no formal links of fellowship with brethren elsewhere, at this time, nor do we recognize any of the various parties here or abroad.

• Believing there is only one body and one fellowship, we have no interest in forming or joining a special fellowship based on wider or narrower grounds. We would be glad to learn of other who share these concerns.

The only divinely accredited position known to us from Scripture is that where the Lord Jesus sovereignly grants His presence to two or three, or more, gathered to His Name alone.

• All this, of course, supposes the existence of suitable moral and spiritual condi­tions, both separation from iniquity and holding fast to that which is good, along with the positive recognition of the presence of the Holy Spirit.

• It follows that we cannot recognize any claims to a successional assembly position or the exclusive possession of the Lord's presence.

We value not only 2 Timothy 2: 19-22, to which many appeal, but also the many other Scriptures which provide guidance in these last and difficult days.

• However, we seek to avoid the undue emphasis on, and unbalanced interpretation of, any part of the holy writings. These practices contributed to the breakdown and continue to mark the various parties claiming to be the only true position.

The uniform witness of Scripture is that every testimony com­mitted to the hands of men has failed.

• The so-called brethren move­ment is no exception, despite the distinctive character of that testi­mony.

• We do not consider ourselves to be brethren in any ecclesias­tical or historical sense. Rather, we desire to be morally such as the Lord would own as my brethren.

As far as we can discern however, the truth recovered to and through the brethren remains the final opening up by the Spirit of the apostolic teaching. It is therefore, in our judgment, the light in which we are to walk. We confess the need of taking practical possession of much that has been opened up in ministry.

Of supreme importance, for the time left to us, is the need of devotion to the rejected Christ and commitment to the continuance of the Lord's Supper and the service of God.

There is also the urgent responsibility of passing on the truth to others. For some years we have had the privilege of having a few young believers from various backgrounds in our home for readings. We are exercised not only to help them individually but also to engage them with Christ and His chief interest on earth …

G.A.R.

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Conduct in the House of God and Qualifications for Administration
The following notes are added only to explain the difficulties we faced and which have led to our present lonely position.

11-Feb-1990
In the interval after the Lord's Supper, A— proposed that there should be a special meeting, perhaps instead of our next special meeting for ministry, to review certain unnamed matters going back 10 years, which were causing him deep exercise.

• He said that the majority were not always right, and that if he were the only one to be concerned that was alright with him.

• All that I said at the time was that I did not support the matter, and so it was left.

• At that time, in the Lord's Day reading, A—— forcefully attempted to have us accept that we could no longer sing hymns by Mr. Stanley McCallum. He stated quite wrongly that S.McC. had never repented of his support for —— prior ot Aberdeen in July 1970.
  • In so doing he also overlooked his own sad history and his marital situation.

• When we would not accept his position, he told Walter Fleming outside after the meeting that he would not come the next week.

• We later told him that to do so willfully, even for a week, was a breach of fellowship and that he needed to confess this, drop his unfounded charges against S.McC. and admit it was not right to make such charges against a servant of the Lord.

• He was given every opportunity to make things right but did not do so, and has not done so since.
  • "An heretical man after a first and second admonition have done with, knowing that such a one is perverted, and sins, being self-condemned", Titus 3: 10-11.

G.A.R.

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